Back to Basics

after giving a lot of thought I decided Im gonna post this, just to be able to read it back when Im 80 and decided to review what was gonig on with my life back in august 2009.

Ive been in some kind of relationship [actually describing it that way is too much but, Ill leave that way ] for the last 10 months, and last night I decided to call it over for me, why for me? cause I was the one thinking there was something going on, he was just...I dont know, he knows, I Dont.

a couple of months ago, while I was doing my daily review [smoking] in the backyard, I thought on how much I would like my kid to grow up just like him..and that, right there, that simple thought made me realize what was going on in my mind...

I fell in love...

and that right there, scared the living shit out of me....

why? Im guessing it was just cause I dont wanna get hurt, falling in love leaves you there, on the spot, totally unprotected; and the possibility of getting hurt was a lot higher this time cause of how things have been going on. things were not handle the right way, doing things really fast at the beggining, trying to slow down later on, each one thinking things on their own corners but not sharing any of that.
this person has helped me so much, he made me improve in each and every aspect of my life, and I cant thank that enough. and as I recognize him as the mature rational half, I thought that what he wants must be the best thing to do. so we are going back to basics. I know I might fail from time to time, but trust me Im doing the best I cant. I just cant afford to loose someone so important in my life, you still have a lot of things to teach me.

as a first payment, I left the url available, you can thank me later.

ps. ok I just saw it, dayum, that is so unfair taking an url to be left untouched since 2002. then. you´ll have to do all the teaching for free as it has been so far :P

start , stop , continue

start
*kissing me more
*answering your phone and text messages when Im with you
*sharing your weekend plans with me (you dont have to take me with you..I just would like to know where you are :$)
*giving more clear rules on this, I never know where or when or in front of who Im allow to hug you
*teaching me to be so mature and calm like you

stop
*keeping things for yourself, I need feedback too
*smoking

continue
*hugging me
*being so sweet
*caring about me
*telling me when Im doing wrong
*listening to me talking about my kid 24/7
*interested on getting to know me better
*letting me know you better
*being so patient with me
*sync to watch weeds every tuesday night
*watching movies with me