refuse resist

...even my IDD refuses to work.....
.....he just wants to logout...just like me :P

sweet memories ::: Tiff Lacey

I dont like this, when I have so many things inside my head trying to come out, but I just keep them to myself cause I have the feeling I just dont have to say them, when I want to do something but I just dont cause I have the feeling will be the wrong move...why messing up things if they are doing ok? but why I cant feel ok holding all that inside? to many things coming at once, thought had a lifesaver but I was wrong, learning to do it on my own, im tired but Im learning, I know I will do it once and for all.
and once again, having the feeling fate is taking care of what I dont have the guts to do, leaving tough decisions to the fate that has been left with the responsability of the choices made, hope, this time, again, Im not taking the wrong one, trying to "think first", Im weighting all the options and posibilities I have at hand, which honestly seem to be none, I still have the hope, at the end, something good will turn out of all the mess.

the day I met "el tunco"

souh, my vacations are over, Im back to work, good thing, people say there's availability so Im still waiting for it. a recap on the vacations...first week, doing homeworks for the logica lab and TIC, and gripe, second week , gripe and my grandma's funeral then taking care of my mom...so, I decided to make the last day a good one, so I asked for help and I met El tunco, ["que no parece tunco"] yes, yes, trust me, I didnt know that place till monday, [shame on me!].

so after the attack of the squirrels, we hit the road and moved to the beach, was a good day, that's how I like the beach, just sitting there, watching the waves, with the breeze....only thing missing was the hammock...I got shocked of the place, its really cool, people every where, and I bet was a slow day, lots of people surfing or just there having fun, I really liked it. I wanted to go to some kinda mmm...oO..dunno..."house" that we could see there, unfortunatly we couldnt go, unless we swim and....we were not ready for that so we came back home, I was so tired, went straight to bed, I had like maybe 1 hour being sleep and someone started knocking on my door, when I got out of bed, my feet got all wet, there was water all over my house, at the end my brother got the thing fix and at least no more water was coming to the house, but I had to take all the water in my room out, and the only thing I wanted was to sleep, I can feel im getting sick again, guess cause of having my feet cold.

in pain// team meet // Evelynz bar

cigz....lost the count.....and still missing some...............
coffee.............1
tea......eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


and this was supposed to be a good day....Im finally going on vacations and...so far it sucks...Im in pain again. ive been looking for my perfect pill but havent found it yet. at least we have availability...

update...12:47

so ..as I am una gran chillona as Shepe said....I went to get a shut, hoping it will relief the pain, but now Im in worst conditions as before..

fucking shut hurts....the pain is still there...I cant eat and my hands are shaking....tan chillona....

just hope Ill be ok for tonight, it will be a shame making so many arrangements to skip class for nothing.

update...1:06 am..
and this was supposed to be a good day....I'm finally going on vacations and...so far it sucks...I'm in pain again. I've been looking for my perfect pill but haven't found it yet. at least we have availability...
update...12:47
so ..as I am una gran chillona as Shepe said....I went to get a shut, hoping it will relief the pain, but now I'm in worst conditions as before..fucking shut hurts....the pain is still there...I cant eat and my hands are shaking....tan chillona....just hope Ill be ok for tonight, it will be a shame making so many arrangements to skip class for nothing.
update...1:06 am..
I'm at the team meeting...trying to get drunk...pain...still hurting like shit......someone said getting drunk will work...so far doesn't seem to be enough....we´ll see later...
Evelyn is in charge of the drinks........FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm just staying away of the bar jajajaja no shows from my end, want to have good memories from tonight :P posting later the highlights

..............................peace out .............................