and I should be doing my fisica report.......

started to get some of the results of the last parciales, gotta say, didnt end up as bad as I thought. one thing is for sure, gotta do a lot better the next one, I dont like those crappy scores,.,

kid has been doing a lil bit better at school, at least that´s what I like to think, my mom´s theory is that the teacher just gave up and that´s the reason why we stopped receiving notes from school. some other problems are arising though, but they are here at the house, gotta say its a lot worst, people at my family (gotta include myself) are not that good receiving feedback ( special note, we are all good taking feedback from other people, but things between us 5 it just sucks) so, gotta make some people here understand how things work here, the escalation process seems to have been messed up a lil bit so we gotta calibrate the whole thing again. I just hope we will be able to do it and nobody will feel hurt.

anyway,.,

ehm, started to read again, and again, my boss had to talk to me about that :s, I was able to improve the metrics I was failing but consistency is my problem, specially when Im necia and start reading...damn, I just cant stop! so I guess Ill have to start all over again and stop reading, I end up reading digital fortress like in 2 days...and I already have the next one ready, I wont take it to work so I wont be tempted to read it :$

on saturday I watched "my sister´s keeper", mmm more than saying a good movie, I would say its a good story, really good one gotta say, my main issue with the movie was having Cameron Diaz as the mom, not a role for her, a mom going through that it is just way too much...I just dont buy it coming from her...anyway, the reason I brought the movie up was cause I heard a song in the movie, and I just loved it, so, I got my artist of the week from there :D, Chantal Kreviazuk....

for the past weeks Ive also been watching season 1 of Dr House, I love that TV series, trying to make season 2 last as long as possible so I wont have to wait too long till season 3 is completly downloaded; I love that "grown up-from-peanuts" talking they have,., jajajja ;)

today I had my boss almost begging me to go do some OT this coming sunday, I know I will regret so much doing it, but, having 3 days off weekend it is not bad at all, specially cause Ill have it payed double and I desperately need the money, so hopefully that day will go fast :(



[and I used The Notebook video cause....well...just cause its funny, I wish I could see ur face :P jajajaja]

day 2..the toughest one...just one more day to go

so here´s the thing,.,.

last semester, which btw was my first one, I killed myself studying, almost literally. I studied each and every day. I was tired, almost didnt see my kid, and the grades I got were not exactly what I expected as a pay off to all that hard work.
this semester I definitely have started it the wrong way...I basically just didnt care for the past 4 weeks and tried to get all that info in less than a week. I feel like with a constipated brain..so much info inside, trying to find a place to stay still, numbers and rules and formulas getting mixed up there, they just dont know how to file them selves; and totally unable to come out. master plan was to study as much as I could and to have a good night sleep on friday night, but the last thing I did was to sleep.
now Im at about 4 hours to the first exam, which I havent review anything for it.

we´ll see how this day goes. so far I have to say is doing good. Ill post the update as soon as I come back home.

I have the best kid ever, he woke up early in the morning as usual, trying as hard as he could not to make any sound whatsoever, and let me sleep till his tummy couldnt take it anymore...he goes and touches me and said "mommy its been a long while since you are here, there´s nobody out there and Im really really hungry" how was I not supposed to jump out of the bed to fix him some breakfast??, that was the sweetest way to wake me up. before he used to go hit the door till ill almost fell off its hinches and yell "MOOOOOOOOOOMMMM"

and let me tell you this, if he manages to keep the new way till he gets married, I can tell you .....he is sooooo getting "some" every night

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and Im updating till today cause last night I was just way too tired, but it went good, really good. Fisica exam was way way too long, but did it completly and hopefully wiht no mistakes. Math was even better, TEACHER ALLOWS PRINTED MATERIAL FOR IT! I didnt know but Im so printing everything for the next one.

weekend highlights

Your luck is about to change today -- and that could be a good thing or a bad thing.

"Your opinion isn't taken as seriously as you think it should be today, but that just means that you've got to roll with it and come back later when your boss -- or whoever -- is ready to hear the truth."

-and Im becoming addicted to this things,.,.[but to be honest, so far doesnt feel the change is gonna be for good :( ]

Im utterly tired right now, been sleeping an average of 3 hours since friday, my eyes are hurting, cant keep them open. I even fell asleep today, thanks to someones proactivity she woke me up and I was able to get the kid ready on time to go to school, if not Im guessing pretty much we will be both snoring in our bed still.

have parciales this coming weekend, fisica and mate, there's so much to read and exercises to do, as the plan is to have a good night sleep on friday Im trying to do as much as I can these days, Im mostly worried about the theory, cause I havent read shie but I think Im doing kinda good with the other part.

this weekend was an enlightening one, been feeling kinda frustrated regarding some things someone told me months ago and I just couldn't understand them at all, after a few beers apparently people gets in the mood of talking and it was really helpful, realized I was missing the meaning of what has been said and had forgotten all the things Ive gone through, now I get its just a timely manner, I walked that same road so long ago that I just couldnt see what was really going on.

also did some talking with the kid a few days ago; one of my biggest fears has always been, to hear him telling me someday he wants to go live at his grandparents house cause he has more fun there than living with me. pretty much my day with him goes sort like this, in the morning I just get him ready to go to school, fighting to get him out of bed, fighting to get him dress, fighting to get him to eat something and then he leaves, when I come back from work fighting to get him do homework, fighting to get him to have dinner, fighting to get him to sleep, so I feel Im the bad guy here, and when he gets to go to that other house, its all watching tv, eating snacks, doing nothing...so I asked him if he likes to go there and he said...mmm yes...do you like to go there and stay with him (his dad)...mmm..no, not really....do you like to be with me...YES! love you mommy and he closed his eyes and fell asleep, right there,.,that unhesitating answer told me everything is gonna be ok, that Im doing it right and that no matter how hard it looks, I still have my kid who loves me....and that is all what I need.

..and Im adding this song just cause my son likes it :D

if you just realize what I just realize...

and this coming weekend I have parciales...ask me if I have study...NOT!.. 3 out 5 of my classes are safe, good thing logic is one of them cause this last thing I just dont get it...Ive been looking for someone who can explain me but...well...and...mmm...



things are doing good...well...no...things are the same...[add rolling eyes here plz]..but Im just trying to see the bright side and hoping for the best to come. The kid hasnt been doing good at school and I will be changing him to another school in this coming months, we'll see if the change helps him, at least he will be with his cousins and Ill save a few bucks too, work...mm...at least I still have one, so that's good...I better dont think about the house cause, who knows what's gonna happen there, bright side....mmm....oO...mm...Ill think about it (+.+)...everything else...is good, weird cause Ive come to notice, I have develop some...skills...Ive never though I could have, keeping my mouth shut and learning how to keep somethings to myself seems to help to save world's peace...but still, sometimes I wonder if that's how things should be, but ...living is easy with eyes close...I mean...well..., if they dont wanna listen want I have to say....I better shut up, right....or not?

hate this cube

these past few weeks have brought some very deep thinking moments, some decisions Im taking are not easy to be turn into action, having to fight with huge needs I have makes it double fight and its not easy, worst, doesnt seem to have any goal besides just stop feeling as bad as I feel right now.

stuck here at this damn cube. I'll keep thinking if Im not doing wrong again. having two options and both of them suck, none of them give me the feeling I want. but I guess, this time, what Im doing will leave someone else winning(¿?), at least that's what I like to think, would make it easier to actually know but, at this point, something Ive come to realize is that I'd never get to know that....
....right?

and its totally worth the update...a classmate remind me of some emails I had to check up on, and I thought on checking the web site again and guess what.....10...en logica!!!!!!!! totally brought a smile to my face...like if it was chocolate-mint flavor nota jajajjajaja so now that means, logica, ingles and TIC are safe, now just the other two, lots of reading and it sucks...but...its a 10!!!!!!!!:D:D:D:D

finally Im done

finally...parciales are over!!!!! now we can relax and sleep for a few days before starting all over again. this past couple of weeks have been really exhausting for me, guess all the emotional package was overwhelming. anyway, finally, they are over, once I did hit that submit button to send the last homework of the week, I felt so relax.
went to see my mom and had some wine, tried to sleep but for some reason that house never lets me sleep. got the kid sleeping already so Ill take advantage of this, watching some tv and then falling sleep...too bad I have to go to work. lets hope the availability keeps its trend :D