and I should be doing my fisica report.......

started to get some of the results of the last parciales, gotta say, didnt end up as bad as I thought. one thing is for sure, gotta do a lot better the next one, I dont like those crappy scores,.,

kid has been doing a lil bit better at school, at least that´s what I like to think, my mom´s theory is that the teacher just gave up and that´s the reason why we stopped receiving notes from school. some other problems are arising though, but they are here at the house, gotta say its a lot worst, people at my family (gotta include myself) are not that good receiving feedback ( special note, we are all good taking feedback from other people, but things between us 5 it just sucks) so, gotta make some people here understand how things work here, the escalation process seems to have been messed up a lil bit so we gotta calibrate the whole thing again. I just hope we will be able to do it and nobody will feel hurt.

anyway,.,

ehm, started to read again, and again, my boss had to talk to me about that :s, I was able to improve the metrics I was failing but consistency is my problem, specially when Im necia and start reading...damn, I just cant stop! so I guess Ill have to start all over again and stop reading, I end up reading digital fortress like in 2 days...and I already have the next one ready, I wont take it to work so I wont be tempted to read it :$

on saturday I watched "my sister´s keeper", mmm more than saying a good movie, I would say its a good story, really good one gotta say, my main issue with the movie was having Cameron Diaz as the mom, not a role for her, a mom going through that it is just way too much...I just dont buy it coming from her...anyway, the reason I brought the movie up was cause I heard a song in the movie, and I just loved it, so, I got my artist of the week from there :D, Chantal Kreviazuk....

for the past weeks Ive also been watching season 1 of Dr House, I love that TV series, trying to make season 2 last as long as possible so I wont have to wait too long till season 3 is completly downloaded; I love that "grown up-from-peanuts" talking they have,., jajajja ;)

today I had my boss almost begging me to go do some OT this coming sunday, I know I will regret so much doing it, but, having 3 days off weekend it is not bad at all, specially cause Ill have it payed double and I desperately need the money, so hopefully that day will go fast :(



[and I used The Notebook video cause....well...just cause its funny, I wish I could see ur face :P jajajaja]

:::Ben Harper-Forever::: [..and some updates in the weekend of sickness]

thought I was gonna be doing better by today but no, it was hard to sleep last night and the kid woke me up early today. my throat hurts a lot and Im having issues to breath again.
and as I been with so much iddle time in my hand Ive been using it wisely and Ive been downloading all the Ben Harper albums I was able to find. Now Ive been stuck with this song, hope you like it too...

I have so many things in my mind to write about here but...damn..Im not feeling good, no will at all to do anything, I fell down today and I hurted my left foot its hurting like hell right now, definitely not a right time to get inspiration, nothing good will come out and as someone said, "if you have nothing good to say, you better say nothing at all"

sick at home

and I am sick...I was gonna go to work to go to the clinic and take the risk whether the doc was gonna send me home or not, but my dad told me it would be better to stay home, so I had to do what I had to do, went straight back to bed. as the day is getting warmer and the pills are starting to knock me down, Im feeling a lil bit better, at least I can sit down without having the feeling to move in slow motion to get all my bones sitting in the appropriate place or the place they rather to stay so they wont hurt.
right now Im getting some player downloaded in the notebook to go and just connect my external hdd and spend the whole day lying in bed watching movies, I just dont want to move at all so Im looking for a way to get them all playing automatically one after the other one, damn media player doesn't wanna work for me this time and this other download Im doing is taking forever, so in the meantime Im just listening to some music,one of my favorite tv shows is "live from Abbey Road" but for either reasons I havent been able to watch it lately, and its from there were I take my artist of the week, I just found one, I love blues, and while youtubing I found this song, which I love by the way, I loved it even more cause its being performed by two artist that I really like.,.,and the lyrics...well...que te puedo decir....what are the odds huh?

behold my new artist of the week Ben Harper and Jack Johnson [ooohhh I love Jack Johnson]...

Don't do me any favors
matter of fact why don't you
do yourself a few
your presence ain't nobody's blessing
I've got plenty of other things
I could do
oh no, not another excuse
your tired silly games
for me are just no use
and now it's plain for me to see
you're with somebody
that you don't want to be
so won't you
please please me like you want to
not like you have to
or won't you just go on and leave me
leaving me is the least
that you could do
you could have spared me
so much misery
and told me you just wanted
a friend
believe me there is a difference
when you mean it
and when you pretend
or was I just you habit
cause I know a habit
is a hard thing to break
but won't you spare me
a little mercy
there's only so much
that I can take
but won't you
please please me like you want to
not like you have to
or won't you just go on and leave me
leaving me is the least
that you could do

having fun on 3D

as the kid has been confined to the house for the last 4 days I decided to take him out to the movies, so we went to see this movie, which was good, but the best part is, that the movie is on 3D, and watching my kid enjoying that was priceless. I watched more at my kid than the actual movie, there are some scenes that the 3D effects comes up really really cool, and watching him trying to reach things are jumping out of his seat cause he feels the ball is gonna hit him in hi face was hilarious ; at the beginning thought it was kinda expensive but, all that made it worth it definitely.

"live from Abbey road" has become a must-be-seen on saturday night, there´s where I get my artist of the week must of the times, last night I was hearing music from Colbie Caillat, really nice songs, as I understood she´s pretty much new; she has one album, " Coco" and she has really nice songs there, my fav ones are "Battle" and "realize"

I've been busy with the hw, but as I get so desperate, besides being homework productive I've been music productive too, been listening to Nadia Ali, guess I've heard her before but, not sure, I was trying to download some of her music but couldn't fine the versions I wanted, I found some acoustic versions that I loved how they sound, too bad couldn't download them, but I'm still fighting. also found music from Joshua Radin, very slow slow music, really good. "what if" , loved that one.

I better go finish my HW…

yesterday stats….

coffee….3

cigz……3

….and Ill hear some music :P

::Cerf, Mitiska & Jaren - You Never Said::

Rejection’s like an ice cold bath
But the water’s feelin’ good this time
And I hate that I misread you boy
But I can’t resist no-crossing signs when
You’re an open invitation to a heartache
A painful kind of good, I should just leave alone but it’s too late

I’m right back where I started out
Not a lot to show, just memories
But I took what I could get from you, now I’m off
To fill the void, you see
I got a habit I can’t break, so it does all the breaking
And a heart that’s slow to heal, cause I fall for the ones
Who are taken

You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

And you just kept walkin’ baby
I couldn’t have stopped you if I tried
I was such a fool to think it might have led
To something fulfilling baby
And had you been willing maybe
I wouldn’t have these thoughts runnin’ through my head

You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye

::Dream-Priscilla Ahn::

cigz...3
coffee...1

today I had to go to the kidz school again...to hear the same complain as the last meeting. kid is not working, refuses to follow instructions and he is totally unable to stay sitting while working or having his meal,.,damn, he is not even allowed to have his break at the playground anymore; worst thing...he just DONT GIVE A FUCK about it,.,how am I supposed to help him? have no idea...

Been doing some google-ing about it, we are gonna start having few rules at the house, we´ll see if they work this time, but Im totally frustrated about, not actually about his behaviour but most of all cause of his IDGAF attitud.

work..worst than ever, Im getting really tired of these damn customers, but I really need the money so I´ll have to stick around for a while, till I find a really good option out there, so far its not easy out there, even people who had leave looking for something better are coming back, so definitely its not a good time to go out searching right now.

grandma still is doing really bad...not getting worst..but not improving, last saturday was really really fucked up but she´s holding on so that´s good. I totally admired that old lady, how she manage to raise her 6 kids will always be a mistery to me, I whish she would do a lil bit more talking so she can teach me something but, guess we run out of time now.

anyway...have tons of HW to do and no will to do them ( que raro yo..), at least the renta thing is done and the diploma thing seems to be at least worked around with no more issues, hate to go to the ministerio but..gotta do it

congrats to my friend...100 POSTS!!!!!...Ill cath you up soon :P jajajaja

:::and that´s saying a lot:::

and today I realize Ive been listening to the same playlist at work and here in my house for the last....month ??...dunno...for some time now,., I notice that while back in the backyard watching the lil rain we got and catch myself just going through all the tracks cause I found them boring, so, I decided to come and look for some new tracks to add..
after a few weeks without finding one, [actually just right now that Im writting this I remember I found one new artist of the week but...didnt post it, and I was trying to stay away of the pc so I didnt actually download anything about this artist,.,we will go back to that one later...anyway] so I found this song, and Ive decided this will be the artist of the week,.,I know its late, almost teaser day but...but late..:D




I HAD to add this one here...

...Close your eyes and lean on me

Cool and calm, the water is

Take me higher

I'll come with you...

::no matter how many times you try…its just not going to happen::

a few days back I received one of those rare calls at work that makes me wish all the customers were like that. cant actually remember what the issue was about but, shame on me, I extended the call as much as I could just to keep talking with that customer. thing is, he made a comment without knowing its a thought that's been bouncing in my head for quite a while, he said …well…he basically has two jobs, one, he said, its to pay his bills, and the other one, its what he is really passion about. basically, that's what I've been thinking from sometime now…how cool would be to work at something you really like…to work on something you are really passion about. so, I've been giving some thought on that and tried to come up with a list on what I think my passions are:

1. music: I love music, at least listening to it, I cant play any instrument, and though some people say I can sing, I'm not that sure about it, haven't done it in front of a big crowd in quite a while [it was like 4 people back in college…ñe]
2. cars: love drifting, guess I'm more into speed…cant drive gotta say..but that's something I'm planning to work in…really soon
3. photography: haven't got the chance to get some pics lately, I actually go crazy when I get the chance to go out, which is rare, also the cam is about to die so I'm looking forward to get a nice one someday [morning :s]
4. movies: I just LOVE to watch movies, I'm totally into that, I'm a total fan of Kevin Smith, and reading his blog just increased my desire of writing a script, cant think of a greater life than writing your thoughts, built an awesome story and get your friends working with you to bring it to life, watch how people get touched by it…its just…awesome…
5. you…although I'm conscious I don't know you as I wish I would, and not sure if Ill ever have the chance [and knowing you as I think I do I wont ever have it, too bad]…its not an actual job…it wouldn't be a job at all..but couldn't help to add it here.. [due to some recent meetings and some misunderstandings that were clarify, this sound very inappropriate, I'm not gonna remove it, you told me once you didn't like me saying things and then regretting and hoping you haven't seen it, so…Ill just leave this how it is]

well….all that said…I've thought about all these and came out with a conclusion…I've been just way too lazy. cant help going back to those high school days, hearing all my classmates talking about what they were planning to study and all those life plans they had…not sure if all they accomplished their goals, I really hope they did, but then its when I realize how lost I am, been feeling like just floating in space, haven't find my actual purpose in life…shame on me…27 years old and I still feel like a teenager trying to find out what I'm supposed to do with my life.

anyway…this week´s artist of the week, its so far the best one of all, Craig David just rocks! found him the day of my birthday I was totally captured by the hit “just don't love you no more (I'm sorry), got to hear the complete album “The story goes” has really good songs; “let her go” // “unbelievable” // “hypnotic”…the story on how he named that song like that cause of his grandma touched me, guess cause of all these I'm going through….dang…the whole album rocks…just a few mixes that don't make justice to the song but…nobody is perfect…nothing cannot be deal with

…“let her go if you cant deal with the pain of a broken heart…just let her go” …so wise words, the actual context of the song implies such a pain, I hope Ill never EVER have to go through something like that…

and looking for some wisdom words…here´s Xayomi´s thought of the day….”some things are not meant to be….no matter how many times you try…they are just not going to happen…sometimes you just have to realize its time to let go…”

PS: ouh…an update I cant leave without posting…things with the kid are improving, cant tell we got them fixed, you never know with a 4 year old; “first adolescence” someone said…using “culture of love” so far we are proud and enjoying the fact he got no notes from school, we´ve been studying for his English class, and somehow, his hunger for knowledge has increased quite a bit, I'm amaze of all the knowledge and all the things he has accomplished so far, days like these makes me feel that everything is gonna be ok…updates later….

is it worth savin' me....

got a new note from school yesterday...so the kid wont have his toys today again.
so as it seems that my parenting skills suck, my dad is getting in charge from now on...I feel pretty much frustrated and dissapointed that I cant get my own kid to behave, feeling that Im loosing my authority [in case I ever had some], I agreed on letting him getting in charge cause definitely the situation cant keep going like this anymore.
this parenting thing is really complicated, its really hard to know, what the appropiate punishment should be, which words should be said, when, how...physical punishment....how much, how hard...how do you know its hard enough but not too much...
its not like Ive never grab a belt and given a taste of it, but everytime I feel like he deserves it..images of earlier years in my life come to my mind and I get scare...remembering my brother being punish in very unappropiate ways and me having to go there and try to get him safe...and to see him now...that definitely is not the best example of good behavior, makes me wonder all these...and freaks me out....

anyway....guess...we will figure it out sooner or later...hope its sooner than later....

and...things...the other things....there's no way that will be doing ok....we are still waiting for any answer....that really sucks cause no matter what....it will never be a good news, does not make any difference...if its a year, a month, a day....its in moments like this when you stop and realize what you've done, what you could've done...and it hurts, hurts bad...

moments like this I don’t like what I've become...and I wonder…is it worth saving me….

artist of the week...

sleeping to dream

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you
I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town.
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down.
as I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes, what a beautiful sight.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of havin' to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
Oh, yes I am



I found myself in the riches
Your eyes, your lips, your hair
Well you were everywhere, out there.
I woke up in the ditches.
I hit the light and I thought you might be here
But you were nowhere. Oh love,
Well, you were nowhere at home.
As I lay me back to sleep,
This love I pray that I can Keep.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.

I'm so tired.

Well its Just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night. Once I dry my eyes I'll...

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
I'm so...tired.