happy B-day dude!!!!!

today is my brother's B-day,., so...dude...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! hope you have a great day today, taking care of my kid, you are such an awesome uncle :D jajajajaja luv ya....

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....my kid cut his hair yesterday, for the second time :S...just received the phone call warning me not to get scared when I get to see him, with his head almost shaved, I hope he gets to learn this time, I've always wanted to cut his hair like really really short as we used to do it when he was just a baby, but he always said nouh!, hopefully looking the new mandatory look will make him understand how wrong it was what he did.....although....how can I make him understand that when even I've messed up my hair cause I have nothing better to do....+.+

and that's why you never have to say never ...

..the one that started it all....

Con te partiro

"Con te partirò" (literally meaning "With you I will leave") is an Italian Classical Crossover song written by Francesco Sartori (music) and Lucio Quarantotto (lyrics). It was first sung by Andrea Bocelli at the 1995 San Remo Festival and recorded on his album of the same year, Bocelli, and is considered Bocelli's signature song. The song achieved widespread success with a second version sung partly in English, pairing Bocelli with soprano Sarah Brightman, released as "Time to Say Goodbye". It is Bocelli's first #1 hit under both versions. From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Quando sono solo

sogno all' orizzonte

e mancan le parole

si lo so che non c´è luce

in una stanza quando manca il sole

se non ci sei tu con me

Su le finestre

mostra a tutti il mio cuore

che hai acceso

chiudi dentro me

la luce che

hai incontrato per strada

con te partirò

paesi che non ho mai

veduto e vissuto con te

adesso sì li vivrò

con te partirò

su navi per mari

che io lo so

no, no, non esistono più

con te io li vivrò

quando sei lontana

sogno all´orizzonte

e mancan le parole

e io sì lo so che sei con me

tu mia luna tu sei qui con me

mio sole tu sei qui con me

con me con me

con te partirò

paesi che non ho mai

veduto e vissuto con te

adesso sì li vivrò

con te partirò

su navi per mari

che, io lo so

no, no, non esistono più

con te io li rivivrò

con te partirò

su navi per mari

che, io lo so

no, no, non esistono più

con te io li rivivrò

con te partirò

Io con te

AvB ft DJ Shah ft Chris Jones - going wrong

Armin van Buuren ft Sharon den Adel-In and out of love

coffee meeting....

today´s been such a long and slow day,., been almost falling sleep but i got to end the HW,., bad thing is that I was so sleepy that I forgot to add some data and at the end I screw up.
we also got the evaluation today..got a 100% :D,.,but damn, I was so nervous I was even sweating, thanks to G´s tlamemes for the help jajajajaja
after work, I got the chance to meet with the gilrs for some coffee, we just missed the bride, but, I always get this weird feeling when I meet with them, dunno, its like,.,we dont have that much in common anymore, weird ackward feeling and sometimes, I got the feeling they think the same too,.,so I was there, taking my coffee thinking wth am I donig here instead of being with my kid,., when all of a sudden things changed...
its amazing how life changes, and sometimes you dont even realize, you are so inmerse on your own miserable feeling, thinking that life sucks, and why on earth you have been force to leave such awful things in your life when you have been so kind with everybody, and then, someone, outside, with absolutly no idea what you are going through comes and cleans up the way for you...
sometimes we think we might know someone, but the truth is,,,we never get to know people completly, but the point of all this senseless is...
things always happen for a reason, we most of the time do not understand that, but, along the way, after years and years, we just suddenly stop and take a look back and realize, how those bad things that happened to us, made us stronger, made us change, made us a better person, helped us to be ready for what it had yet to come....thanks to some people I can realize that, almost 3 years now and I can still remember everything, and now I smile when I do, and think...I wished I knew what I know now back then...when days felt like months, and each minute felt it lasted forever...now.... 3 years later I can tell....I dont regret anything I did, anything I said, anything that happened,.,cause the road was already set up for me, and I was just getting ready for it.
....and what I can tell you is....I know its hard, and I know you must not believe this, not even from me, but one thing is for sure....you have to give yourself a chance...cause nobody will be waiting till you get the guts of making that jump...believe me you are missing so much, yes, it´s true, love hurts...but it also makes you better, you cant keep yourself away of that, one day or another it will catch you, and somehow I know the time is now...so I hope, you let yourself go and enjoy what´s being shown right in front of you, stop blinding yourself and realize that the chance is now, its not gonna be easy and it will take some pain, but the reward will come later in a way you´ve never suspected....be free...do not settle....you are not meant to be alone....

Karina needs....

well, I found this in one of the blogs I like and found it interesting,.,this is the thing, you gotta google your name followed by the word needs and you have to quote the phrase and then just copy the first ten sentences you get as results, no duplicates allowed...

these are mine...

* "Karina needs"..to come out and play
* "Karina needs"..to get off ThisNext
* "Karina needs"...parents that will provide her with unconditional love
* "Karina needs"..a prom date
* "Karina needs"...a loan 1050 soles
* "Karina needs"...folks who are very nurturing and skilled
* "Karina needs"...to stop with the condescending facial expressions
* "Karina needs"..to go
* "Karina needs"...a miracle
* "Karina needs"...to move and not look back

very very interesting stuff...funny...but true....

burned with desire...

artist of the week...

even dreams are real

still here doing homework, had to listen a call that I got audited on friday...was a really bad call, ...I really tried to listen to it, but I can´t, I keep listening to these people all day long, my ears just refuse to keep listening to this crap, so I´m just getting ready for the feedback tomorrow.
the kid and the sister got in a fight today at the school bus,.,that got me speechless today when I got home,.,this mom-thing is going worst everyday, people keep saying, it´s just a phase...cielos...sometimes that just makes me wish for him to grow up faster than what he is doing, but at the same time, he is so fun and sweet right now, he still looooves to kiss me jajaja
so...dunno...gotta come up with something to make him behave, gotta say he has improve in his work, so it might be right and it´s just a matter of time to get him out of troubles.
Everything else it´s just the same..nothing has change, Im just trying to find the time to sleep a lil´bit more but at the same time to get things on time.
took two sleeping pills yesterday...aparently was a good show to see,.,that´s what people at the house said,.,so my next experiment will be that,., a couple of sleeping pills, a videocam, tv, and me....I have no memory on what happened that day, aparently I started talking crap right before I got knocked out, at least I was able to get the kid in his pj´s and took him to bed, the next day I asked him who dressed him to sleep and he just started laughing, aparently even he noticed how dopped his mom was :P
got my first experiment of the year, I haven´t come up with any survey recently...hhmmm..I´ll have to think on one soon...
I found this song today, I´m not into this type of music, but gotta say there are some songs that really rock...
definitly sometimes I wish I wouldn´t have to wake up and just keep dreaming,.,I hope it´s true that even dreams are real...

what a week....good thing is almost over, one more test and we are good to go....and start all over again,.,but better; definitly there´s something Im not doing right, things are not coming out the way I expected, but we are still on time to fix them.

not feeling good, the leg keeps bugging, and that´s pretty annoying...and I can´t help feeling dissapointed of my grades but.....

....I only need you to smile at me and tell me....

....everything is gonna be alright

recap...

been doing really bad on my tests today, haven´t read Logica, and the kid is not doing that good, he is not able to sleep guess cause of the fever, so far it´s such an awful night, cause Im trying to read and study as much as I can but I keep being interrupted by him, can´t believe how things can get so complicated sometimes, but I hope for the next one Ill be already used to all this working-studying thing so I wont feel so overwhelmed as I feel right now...

and as Ironic life can be...I was posting that really nice song from Jason Mraz earlier today....how wonderful life is....and at this very right minute I feel life sucks!!!!!!! if something is going bad, there´s only one thing I can be sure of...it WILL get worst...
been reading all day, got bitched by a customer who definitly got me so pissed off...I even broke my headsets...stupid....the kid is sick...at first I was told ,.,no worries there´s no need to take him to the doctor, so I had to wait what I felt like years to get home,.,just to come here and to be told by the same person,.,we have to take him to the doctor we are still on time,.,as Im such a useless mom I thought, ok, there´s this lady who raised 3 kids, and none of us are dead, so she must know something...so, even though I came so pissed off from work, worried about the kid, and got even more upset cause she could have gone to pick me up and take the kid to the doctor earlier, she decided to wait till I got home,., anyway, we went, doctor said, just give him something for the fever and we´ll see how it goes...I said, damn...there goes $20 for something I already knew, then, got home, and this sweet lady says, I told her to wait, it was not huge need to take the kid to the doctor....fuck, fuck, fuck....
anyway,., Im just bitching around right now, [instead of reading] and just can`t wait for this weekend to finish, Im sad I wont be able to go to Vane´s house today, but Im sure they´ll understand and hopefuly we will be able to meet again all of us, soon. at least before the wedding

...highlights...the kid is doing better right now, he still does not want to eat, but at least he stopped crying and seems to be feeling better...I hope he will stay like that the rest of the night...

life is wonderful live

we 3...

and as usual....doing whatever I can think of instead of reading....fingers still are hurting...job hurted more than ever....
today´s menu...cup of coffee....my book...reading...reading....daydreaming....more coffee....chasing Amy soundtrack....reading...

cielos this post took forever....I´ll definitly remember this post saturday morning during my parcial...:P

nothing can be done....its dead...

got the USB back....diagnostic....it's dead.....

which will mean I have to keep reading this boring book...nothing will change the fact it's totally boring and senseless to me...no matter how many chongitas I add to it as someone said...
just got back from the kid's school..nothing new....he talks too much so he does not pay attention to the intructions when he is in the class...I can't remember what else she said...I was not paying attention..:S...kidding...mm..anyway...I have to keep working at home with him to improve his coloring skills and his concentration, and his way to play..cielos, have no idea how Im gonna do it, will see how it goes.
In my way back somehow, I hurt my fingers, it hurts to type...have no idea how it happened...

dream, read, dream....

and I still havent got my USB back....Ill have to read everything all over again. hope that dude can get it fix ...and that he is not gonna be tempted to read anything :$...cielos.....

so much to read...and the only thing I have in my head is my bed....

artist of the week...

sleeping to dream

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you
I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town.
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down.
as I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes, what a beautiful sight.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of havin' to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
Oh, yes I am



I found myself in the riches
Your eyes, your lips, your hair
Well you were everywhere, out there.
I woke up in the ditches.
I hit the light and I thought you might be here
But you were nowhere. Oh love,
Well, you were nowhere at home.
As I lay me back to sleep,
This love I pray that I can Keep.

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.

I'm so tired.

Well its Just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night. Once I dry my eyes I'll...

Sleeping to dream about you
and I'm so damn tired.
Of having to live without you
But I, I don't mind.
Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
I'm so...tired.

when everything looked so dark...

souh...things go like this.....my forever-dream its to start doing some investment meanwhile Im still stuck at the parents house, been thinking and seudo-planning this during all ´08 I got dissapointed when Dec catch up with me and nothing was done at all.
well, so at least to assure something was finally gonna be done this year, I inscribe myself to the university, yes, Im not used to that, yes, Im getting tired like crazy, but..yes...its a goal that has to be attain someday...morning (¿?), anyway...been fighting with the brother for the last couple of weeks to have the right to use this damn thing, Im tired already, we´ve been fighting since we got the computer the first time and it has gone worst now that Im in classes so, things being said, I need my own system, so I can use it with no problem, with no people bugging around, at first I was kinda dissapointed cause thinking on getting the money for such a thing, is not easy thing for me...but...got to check some notes and....guess what.....I have enough to do it...that got me so damn happy...so, now we can start very seriously the search for that ouh-so-loved-highly-appreciated-long-last-waited portable computer...souh that got me so fucking happy at first and then....something else happened...

the sister saw my full of frustration face due the computer-fighting thing and cause of some comments I did, she remind me about a house she saw, wich she considers Id love...wich she is probably right, at least, the neighborhood its a place I DO love, my dreamed place to raise my kid gotta say, so, we knew about this house around....last year....middle of last year maybe, so as I couldnt get anything done at that time ($$$), I totally erased that house from my mind, thing is she told me the house is still available...so I called....and ....

yes, it is correct, house its available, someone needs to rent it, and I want to buy it but not live in it....CAN SOMETHING BE ANY MORE PERFECT????? ....well, yes.....
it would be perfect if I had the money to actually buy it...or at least to got the chance to get a loan at the bank to buy it...which, due my so poor work-class paycheck wont be worth of...

but....se vale soñar....

at least the fact that the chance is still there....that there might be a way to work all this out, and have all what I dream off come true....cielos, CIELOS!!!! got a huge huge smile in my face...

so....we´ll see if all this works out...at least...if it does not...it brought some hope, we are still fighting...

manual request...

so..as Im such a new user on this motherhood thing, I can definitly tell...I suck at this...kidz already 4 and we are struggling so much on this so call discipline. we are facing even more challenges now at the new school. I've been call to a meeting with his teacher this coming thursday, so we'll see what she has to say. thing is...I dont agree with some things she considers in her teaching methods, I was checking one of his HW yesterday and she added some notes stating that painting some drawings with purple hair is not the correct color to use....and I think...arent kids suppose to use their imagination as they want??? I mean...he is just a kid, he can paint whatever color he wants, cant he?? even grown-up woman paint their fucking hair with any crazy color they want, even more than one color...why on earth my kid cant paint a drawing with some purple hair???
so , just in order to keep world's peace I didnt reply to her note and I didnt say anything to my kid, he can use all the colors he wants anytime he wants.
so, if you have any tip will be more than welcome...how to raise a kid and not die trying....

a month ago.....

why you should ALWAYS create a back up...

I have to upload my homework, and got until 12 to do it...and guess what??? my USB just died...and as prepared I always am...got absolutly no back up of all the files I have in that fucking USB, Im in a hurry now for the hw, but what hurts the most are all the files I had save there already, my crazy writtings I´ve been saving there since middle of last year seems to be now gone, a very important letter, my never-ended script, my never-ended book, and all the nonsense Ive been writting there, cielos....in my desperation just called Erick, so he states he´ll try to fix it, I hope he will be able to, and as soon its up and running again, Ill end uploading the writtings, I have not even half of them uploaded yet....and I cant afford to loose them, my memory sucks...

and this is why....you should always create a back up....

happy valentine´s day!!!

today´s valentine´s...so I want to thank all the people that somehow have come to my life and showed me..what friends are....I´ve always consider I don´t have friends, as I see some profiles in facebook of people going out everywhere with the same crew....meanwhile I go out nowhere...cause have nobody to go with...
after I came back to my dad´s house,around 3 years ago, they took me to have some dinner for my birthday, we went to a chinese restaurant, and I got my very first fortune cookie (actually the only one so far) and my fortune said "you´ll always be surrounded by true friends"; so Ive been thinking about it and realized...that´s totally true.
I´ve always had someone in my life, who has helped me to go trough life, most of them are not with me anymore, but I know that if I need them, I´ll always count with them, as they know they count with me.
so today, I want to thank all that people that has come to my life and left something of them in me, to the ones that had teach me how to be a better person, the ones that had supported me, the ones that had some beers with me, the ones who had hold my head while throwing up, had heard and read all my stories [same stories over and over again], for the ones that believed in me, the ones that are still with me, the one who without noticing took my broken heart and put it back in....to all of you...HAPPY VALENTINE´S DAY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!

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got my valentine´s day gifts......

thanks to my Bro for the chocolates....and to Rodri for the card...

Be my valentine, Charlie Brown...

Lucy van Pelt: What are you doing, Charlie Brown?
Charlie Brown: I'm waiting for valentines.
Lucy van Pelt: Well, good luck.
Charlie Brown: Thank you.
Lucy van Pelt: You're gonna need it.
Charlie Brown: You didn't have to say that!