at the beginning of this week I saw how much work I have pending and how many things I have to do during the weekend...first thing to do..check how many OTHER things I can do instead of the homeworks....procastination mode ON!
next thing in the list was to freak out thinking about all the homework, all the studying, classes, labs, etc that I have to do, but as of today, Im feeling better, Fisica homework is almost done, just missing a couple of exercises and to print it out. have a lot of reading to do for ortografia and TIC, damn...hate ortografia...eeeewwwww
anyway, stepping out a bit, seems there's nothing to freak out and it seems Ill be able to do everything on time. the kid has been doing good at school too, homework with him is not a hell anymore, as people say, once you touch bottom the only way you can go is up....so looks like after that freaky sunday we both reach bottom and now we are both going up..TOGETHER :D
as days go by Im feeling better, getting my mind at ease and learning to focus on the things that matter and the things I can actually control, everything else..well,., there's nothing that can be done and Im not hurting myself anymore cause of that, learning how to let go has been really hard, the toughest thing Ive had to do, but definitely is paying off
Showing posts with label homework. Show all posts
Showing posts with label homework. Show all posts
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
enjoying calm after the storm
souh,., the whole kid's teacher thing was really annoying, I guess I was in denial thinking it was her being lazy not wanting to do extra work with my kid just cause all the other kids in the room are a bunch of pussies who have no will of their own.
anyway, I started to get worry when all of a sudden my son seemed to have a menopausal grumpy woman trapped inside, he was just not willing to do any homework at all, it didn't matter how much I threat with taking away his toys, leaving him with no tv for the rest of his life or just to leave him in the corner with a FREE sign hanging on his neck.
and I just collapsed...it didn't happen all of sudden, it was a slow process and very painful, I noticed when I started calling my friend crying cause I couldn't take it anymore, crying alone everytime I saw homework pending, and we reached bottom a week ago when I thought just on walking away and leave everything and got my mom upset with me, that day that I thought life couldnt get any worst...and I cried cause I thought I was not gonna make it.
I spent my time searching every article I could find regarding helping a 5 year old doing homework,., Im not gonna say I indeed applied the things that I found, but they gave me some reference on the things Ive been doing so wrong.
so, last week he missed some classes cause he was kinda sick and he went back on saturday, so he was around 3 days behind in all his work, I was about to pass out when I saw so many work pending. but we got it done by sunday morning...I was AMAZED...Im not gonna lie, was not easy, but it was what I think a normal level of unwillingness. yesterday I got home a lil bit late than usual, and he had a lot of work again, and it was just the most amazing experience ever, we made jokes, I had to be sitting next to him all the time, but we got almost everything done, and the work done was just perfect, we couldnt finish cause it was too late, there was a lot of work and he was about to start crying, he just wanted to sleep, I refused to push him anymore and we got to the agreement he would wake up earlier the next day to finish the work, he just said yes and fell asleep immediately.
two things about the whole experience got me really shock...first, the fact that he was working SO DAMN GOOD, Ive always known he can do a good job but that coloring....those numbers....it was just glowing in awesomeness....and when I told him how wonderful his work was he goes and says...mommy is just I dont want you to get upset with me, so that's why I work.
my heart broke at that point, had to hold myself together to not start crying right there, cant believe how much pressure Ive been putting in to those lil shoulders that the only thing that motivates him to work is not getting me upset.
that was hard, but I realize how setting up a real goal helped so much, I was not gonna keep on fighting to match the teacher's criteria, I understand my kid has his own speed of learning and his own way of doing things...so now Im not focusing on the side he chooses to start drawing the circle as long as he does it and get it done right.
sorry baby Im learning how to be a mom with you...I wish I knew how to do everything right from start...thanks for loving me so much.
anyway, I started to get worry when all of a sudden my son seemed to have a menopausal grumpy woman trapped inside, he was just not willing to do any homework at all, it didn't matter how much I threat with taking away his toys, leaving him with no tv for the rest of his life or just to leave him in the corner with a FREE sign hanging on his neck.
and I just collapsed...it didn't happen all of sudden, it was a slow process and very painful, I noticed when I started calling my friend crying cause I couldn't take it anymore, crying alone everytime I saw homework pending, and we reached bottom a week ago when I thought just on walking away and leave everything and got my mom upset with me, that day that I thought life couldnt get any worst...and I cried cause I thought I was not gonna make it.
I spent my time searching every article I could find regarding helping a 5 year old doing homework,., Im not gonna say I indeed applied the things that I found, but they gave me some reference on the things Ive been doing so wrong.
so, last week he missed some classes cause he was kinda sick and he went back on saturday, so he was around 3 days behind in all his work, I was about to pass out when I saw so many work pending. but we got it done by sunday morning...I was AMAZED...Im not gonna lie, was not easy, but it was what I think a normal level of unwillingness. yesterday I got home a lil bit late than usual, and he had a lot of work again, and it was just the most amazing experience ever, we made jokes, I had to be sitting next to him all the time, but we got almost everything done, and the work done was just perfect, we couldnt finish cause it was too late, there was a lot of work and he was about to start crying, he just wanted to sleep, I refused to push him anymore and we got to the agreement he would wake up earlier the next day to finish the work, he just said yes and fell asleep immediately.
two things about the whole experience got me really shock...first, the fact that he was working SO DAMN GOOD, Ive always known he can do a good job but that coloring....those numbers....it was just glowing in awesomeness....and when I told him how wonderful his work was he goes and says...mommy is just I dont want you to get upset with me, so that's why I work.
my heart broke at that point, had to hold myself together to not start crying right there, cant believe how much pressure Ive been putting in to those lil shoulders that the only thing that motivates him to work is not getting me upset.
that was hard, but I realize how setting up a real goal helped so much, I was not gonna keep on fighting to match the teacher's criteria, I understand my kid has his own speed of learning and his own way of doing things...so now Im not focusing on the side he chooses to start drawing the circle as long as he does it and get it done right.
sorry baby Im learning how to be a mom with you...I wish I knew how to do everything right from start...thanks for loving me so much.
Monday, August 17, 2009
I have a crush on you...
I was having the greatest time walking under the sun from one building to the other in the university when all of a sudden I see something looking a lot like this...
and after I realize I was there standing in the middle of the parking lot doing nothing but staring at this beauty I knew that the minute I decide to stop with the whole being mature thing I do count with a new object of my affection [don't you feel threat?...]
anyway..
had classes on saturday afternoon, was pretty annoying to be coughing the whole class, I thought I was gonna get kicked out of the room cause of all this H1N1 paranoia (Hell No :P), did a lil bit of studying, was nice cause it seems I do remember a lot of things, thought my brain was gonna have more issues, its been around 6 years since I don't do a math exercise...
on sunday afternoon the kid went out with my parents so I was left alone, I planned on doping my day away but then I made up my mind and just took some pics but the camera was not in a good mood and was not working again, then I just watched tv, a lot actually, mostly the History channel...now Im caught reading the "Dialogue concerning the two chief world systems" by Galileo Galilei...we'll see if I actually read it all...although I should be reading the awful amount of material I have pending from orthography :(...eeeeeeeeeewwwwww
and after I realize I was there standing in the middle of the parking lot doing nothing but staring at this beauty I knew that the minute I decide to stop with the whole being mature thing I do count with a new object of my affection [don't you feel threat?...]anyway..
had classes on saturday afternoon, was pretty annoying to be coughing the whole class, I thought I was gonna get kicked out of the room cause of all this H1N1 paranoia (Hell No :P), did a lil bit of studying, was nice cause it seems I do remember a lot of things, thought my brain was gonna have more issues, its been around 6 years since I don't do a math exercise...
on sunday afternoon the kid went out with my parents so I was left alone, I planned on doping my day away but then I made up my mind and just took some pics but the camera was not in a good mood and was not working again, then I just watched tv, a lot actually, mostly the History channel...now Im caught reading the "Dialogue concerning the two chief world systems" by Galileo Galilei...we'll see if I actually read it all...although I should be reading the awful amount of material I have pending from orthography :(...eeeeeeeeeewwwwww
Sunday, August 16, 2009
thinking out loud
wow...fighting was reduced in 90% and homework is now done...Im such a good mom...
I shouldn't be allowed to text while doped....just a thought....
I shouldn't be allowed to text while doped....just a thought....
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Thinking out loud
so....Im just gonna say...Im exhausted....been trying to write this post all morning but, just cant...
...thanks for listening and caring enough like to take the time to look up for a solution, you have no idea how much that helps, at this time when Im feeling so frustrated finding someone who is not turning his back at me has helped me more than what you can tell...
...we'll see how it goes today...
...thanks for listening and caring enough like to take the time to look up for a solution, you have no idea how much that helps, at this time when Im feeling so frustrated finding someone who is not turning his back at me has helped me more than what you can tell...
...we'll see how it goes today...
Saturday, May 30, 2009
the perfect day
and I had the perfect friday....chocolate-mint gum, frap cappuccino with cocoa :P (cause cinnamon eeewww jaajajaja) , couple of beers...movies...food....good companie...definitely, even if I had planned it couldn´t have end up better than that...nothing could do it better...well, yeah maybe there´s something...an endless friday jajajjaja
anyway, had some souveniers to remember the day, (thanks! jajajaja) well I like them, makes the day more... real +.+
the kid is at his grandma´s house, he´ll be back till the afternoon I guess, so Ill try to do some productive stuff like watching movies and to watch the 4 seasons I have of weeds, getting ready for season 5, and also I´ll try to do some TIC and sociedad hw I have pending :P
anyway, had some souveniers to remember the day, (thanks! jajajaja) well I like them, makes the day more... real +.+
the kid is at his grandma´s house, he´ll be back till the afternoon I guess, so Ill try to do some productive stuff like watching movies and to watch the 4 seasons I have of weeds, getting ready for season 5, and also I´ll try to do some TIC and sociedad hw I have pending :P
Saturday, May 2, 2009
::Cerf, Mitiska & Jaren - You Never Said::
Rejection’s like an ice cold bath
But the water’s feelin’ good this time
And I hate that I misread you boy
But I can’t resist no-crossing signs when
You’re an open invitation to a heartache
A painful kind of good, I should just leave alone but it’s too late
I’m right back where I started out
Not a lot to show, just memories
But I took what I could get from you, now I’m off
To fill the void, you see
I got a habit I can’t break, so it does all the breaking
And a heart that’s slow to heal, cause I fall for the ones
Who are taken
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
And you just kept walkin’ baby
I couldn’t have stopped you if I tried
I was such a fool to think it might have led
To something fulfilling baby
And had you been willing maybe
I wouldn’t have these thoughts runnin’ through my head
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
But the water’s feelin’ good this time
And I hate that I misread you boy
But I can’t resist no-crossing signs when
You’re an open invitation to a heartache
A painful kind of good, I should just leave alone but it’s too late
I’m right back where I started out
Not a lot to show, just memories
But I took what I could get from you, now I’m off
To fill the void, you see
I got a habit I can’t break, so it does all the breaking
And a heart that’s slow to heal, cause I fall for the ones
Who are taken
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
And you just kept walkin’ baby
I couldn’t have stopped you if I tried
I was such a fool to think it might have led
To something fulfilling baby
And had you been willing maybe
I wouldn’t have these thoughts runnin’ through my head
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
You never said, you never said that I’m your baby
You never said, you never said that I’m the one
You never said you’d try, or that you’d take me or you’d leave me
You just said goodbye, you said goodbye
Sunday, April 26, 2009
bad weekend...tons of HW...
coffee..............2
cigz...none..since friday :P
yesterday was such a crappy day, knowing I had so much work to do, but being so damn sleepy that I couldn't do a thing, couldn't sleep cause I had to watch out the kid, wanting night so bad to come but at the same time not cause of the big fight that I knew was coming.
at the end...there was no fight.. he knows what hurts me the most...
anyway, thanks to that, today, morning was fine, working in logica and sociedad, afternoon was bad, wanting him to leave, good thing he took the kids to choose the dog for my sis...
I'm so tired of this HW, and I'm not even close to finish, I also have to wait till they start working on it so they can help me with the parts I'm missing and that I don't know how to do them.
I've been working on this all afternoon, at this point I'm just procrastinating and just thinking something else, some images in my mind I don't need to have right now, good memories but they take me totally out of focus of what I'm trying to do.
the kid has a football game tomorrow, so Ill go watch him and then Ill go deliver my hw so it can get deliver later at the time the miss has specified jajaja
cigz...none..since friday :P
yesterday was such a crappy day, knowing I had so much work to do, but being so damn sleepy that I couldn't do a thing, couldn't sleep cause I had to watch out the kid, wanting night so bad to come but at the same time not cause of the big fight that I knew was coming.
at the end...there was no fight.. he knows what hurts me the most...
anyway, thanks to that, today, morning was fine, working in logica and sociedad, afternoon was bad, wanting him to leave, good thing he took the kids to choose the dog for my sis...
I'm so tired of this HW, and I'm not even close to finish, I also have to wait till they start working on it so they can help me with the parts I'm missing and that I don't know how to do them.
I've been working on this all afternoon, at this point I'm just procrastinating and just thinking something else, some images in my mind I don't need to have right now, good memories but they take me totally out of focus of what I'm trying to do.
the kid has a football game tomorrow, so Ill go watch him and then Ill go deliver my hw so it can get deliver later at the time the miss has specified jajaja
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
::Dream-Priscilla Ahn::
cigz...3
coffee...1
today I had to go to the kidz school again...to hear the same complain as the last meeting. kid is not working, refuses to follow instructions and he is totally unable to stay sitting while working or having his meal,.,damn, he is not even allowed to have his break at the playground anymore; worst thing...he just DONT GIVE A FUCK about it,.,how am I supposed to help him? have no idea...
Been doing some google-ing about it, we are gonna start having few rules at the house, we´ll see if they work this time, but Im totally frustrated about, not actually about his behaviour but most of all cause of his IDGAF attitud.
work..worst than ever, Im getting really tired of these damn customers, but I really need the money so I´ll have to stick around for a while, till I find a really good option out there, so far its not easy out there, even people who had leave looking for something better are coming back, so definitely its not a good time to go out searching right now.
grandma still is doing really bad...not getting worst..but not improving, last saturday was really really fucked up but she´s holding on so that´s good. I totally admired that old lady, how she manage to raise her 6 kids will always be a mistery to me, I whish she would do a lil bit more talking so she can teach me something but, guess we run out of time now.
anyway...have tons of HW to do and no will to do them ( que raro yo..), at least the renta thing is done and the diploma thing seems to be at least worked around with no more issues, hate to go to the ministerio but..gotta do it
congrats to my friend...100 POSTS!!!!!...Ill cath you up soon :P jajajaja
coffee...1
today I had to go to the kidz school again...to hear the same complain as the last meeting. kid is not working, refuses to follow instructions and he is totally unable to stay sitting while working or having his meal,.,damn, he is not even allowed to have his break at the playground anymore; worst thing...he just DONT GIVE A FUCK about it,.,how am I supposed to help him? have no idea...
Been doing some google-ing about it, we are gonna start having few rules at the house, we´ll see if they work this time, but Im totally frustrated about, not actually about his behaviour but most of all cause of his IDGAF attitud.
work..worst than ever, Im getting really tired of these damn customers, but I really need the money so I´ll have to stick around for a while, till I find a really good option out there, so far its not easy out there, even people who had leave looking for something better are coming back, so definitely its not a good time to go out searching right now.
grandma still is doing really bad...not getting worst..but not improving, last saturday was really really fucked up but she´s holding on so that´s good. I totally admired that old lady, how she manage to raise her 6 kids will always be a mistery to me, I whish she would do a lil bit more talking so she can teach me something but, guess we run out of time now.
anyway...have tons of HW to do and no will to do them ( que raro yo..), at least the renta thing is done and the diploma thing seems to be at least worked around with no more issues, hate to go to the ministerio but..gotta do it
congrats to my friend...100 POSTS!!!!!...Ill cath you up soon :P jajajaja
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