Young wolf - nameday

And this is suposed to be a happy day and it is, don't get me wrong but it has a bitter sweet taste.
I have come to learn that I should not relay on anybody. Expectations have probe to be the root of all my disappointments. So, I don't make plans with anybody and do my best not to expect anything from anybody.but even though I have this so clear, it still hurts me when the ones who are supposed to love me and the kid the most, makes absolutely no effor to show it.
It makes it even harder,  when they talk and criticize the kid's family for not making an effort, and they being here making no effort whatsoever, it makes it even worst and more painful.
At this point, I know I have to lose the fear and just take what I have and make the best of it... but sometimes it feels as such a hard thing to do.

Happier-ish...

found this gem... 05/2012

she said: contame like in the movie... which are those moments of impact you replay in your mind, about us, like.. since you met me
he said: the moment in the front yard when I asked you
...one of the very first times in front of your house when I met the kid..
...driving you home from work holding hands a long long time ago
...you & me making out in my room
.. the letter you gave me from a yellow notepad, which ends you closing a call telling me to ask my sales rep about the inspiron 9
...you laughing about all the nonsense that came out of my mind
...the very first time in my bed
...the time we went to el Tunco, that one day we just sat there enjoying each others company
... you on top of me at the cabin, lights were out except the lamp and its orange glow, you looked so beautiful
... en tu cube sitting there you smiling, just listening to you talk...

Your one and only..

You've been in my mind
I grow fonder every day
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taken me
So long to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want.

I don't know why I'm scared
I've been here before
Every feeling, every word
I've imagined it all
You'll never know if you never try
To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy
To hold in your arms
So come and give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that Mile
Until the end starts

If I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me
Whichever road I choose, you'll go?

35

Yeap.. Time's up!  ��

If only...

I told you when you left..

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