just two weeks....the beggining...

and Im spending two [hopefuly] weeks downstairs on LVR...cant post down there...I cant think....its a weird feeling to be busy all the time...absolutely no availability whatsoever but at the same time, feeling my brain totally shut down..hibernation mode...disable...not being used at all but besides the most basic needs...breathing...dialing extension...saying the same opening more than 300 times a day...

I hate it!!!!!




Almost gave up yesterday, almost made it to the top
Short of dying just the other day, fell short of picking up a mop
If it's the thought that counts, you can always count on me
I think about it all the time
It's going to hit me like a bolt of white lightning
Here it comes, my peace of mind

Cause I'm close, so close, so close
I'm close, so close, so close

Falling short of proving it, just a hair from the truth
Little shy of improving it, here I come, I'm coming through
Pretty soon I'm going to shed this skin I'm wearing
I've been keeping it inside
No one cares just how you got there
No one cares how hard you've tried

But you're close, so close, so close
You're close, so close, so close

Well I've known you forever, we complete each other's thoughts
Ain't like we never got in trouble, it's just we've never gotten caught

And if you've got a secret
It's in me you can confide
And if we ever get split up
I'll always be on your side

Cause we're close, so close, so close
We're close, so close, so close

if you just realize what I just realize...

and this coming weekend I have parciales...ask me if I have study...NOT!.. 3 out 5 of my classes are safe, good thing logic is one of them cause this last thing I just dont get it...Ive been looking for someone who can explain me but...well...and...mmm...



things are doing good...well...no...things are the same...[add rolling eyes here plz]..but Im just trying to see the bright side and hoping for the best to come. The kid hasnt been doing good at school and I will be changing him to another school in this coming months, we'll see if the change helps him, at least he will be with his cousins and Ill save a few bucks too, work...mm...at least I still have one, so that's good...I better dont think about the house cause, who knows what's gonna happen there, bright side....mmm....oO...mm...Ill think about it (+.+)...everything else...is good, weird cause Ive come to notice, I have develop some...skills...Ive never though I could have, keeping my mouth shut and learning how to keep somethings to myself seems to help to save world's peace...but still, sometimes I wonder if that's how things should be, but ...living is easy with eyes close...I mean...well..., if they dont wanna listen want I have to say....I better shut up, right....or not?

and we love them.....

...I usually watch tv with my kid, and I do like most of the shows he watch...but this one along with my sister...we love it!

kaizen-ing my life....

and my filosofia class is almost over, pretty much we are just missing the last exam, the very last subject was really interesting, talking about Kaizen and how we can get it apply pretty much in everything we do. I wish we would have talked about that lot more, feel I have so many things I still want to know.

souh, I was told to post about it, I don't exactly what to say, so pretty much this is the thoughts I've been left with after being introduce to the Toyota way....Im planning on working and applying the kaizen into my dad´s work, I already talked with him and he is very excited about it, good thing he is very open-minded and is willing to let me work on it. will require a lot of work, specially cause Ill have to spend a lot of time down there, cant apply changes if I don't know how things are working there right now. Kaizen is supposed to be able to be apply in every aspect in our life so, also, I've been thinking on getting a more kaizen way of living, so that one will be the toughest of all I think, getting rid of things I'm doing that are not giving anything to my life, that one will take more time I think, but, we are working on it..

first step is, Seiri or Selecting...pretty much its based on going through all the stuff you have or all the things you do, and get rid of all the things that either you don't use or do not bring any advantage or real purpose on your life, one special recommendation my teacher did was, when doing this, to leave the things we are still not completely sure if they are useless packaged temporarily, if after a few months neither us or someone else have made real use of them, we must get rid of them.

so that´s pretty much what Ill be working on..Ill be uploading pics on how things are right now and show some of the progress we will be making,.,.once we are done with this one Ill be posting the next steps....

oO

and I so need to vent right now.....souh...been waiting for my notebook for almost 2 months now, actually over two months if we talk since the invoice date, at the beginning I thought, ok, there are some issues, I knew they wont honor the estimated delivery date, (fuck it! lets be real, I work at a computer company and I certainly know they almost never get to honor that for any x reason) and I can even tell, that I would be willing to wait, I mean, I already waited all this long, thinking on going into the refund battle ...damn..((((suspiro))))...anyway...what really really really pisses me off is these people refusing to give any kind of explanation or at least something that would be at least similar to one...we are getting no answer at all, guess that the threat of canceling all the orders end up getting things worst, so at this point we´ve been dealing with hours of hold time, getting hung up on, or recordings stating people is at lunch like for 2 hours, a bitch who seems to handle their call center and she is the only agent there cause she is always but ALWAYS on a call, a dude who dissapear; so convenient he doesnt work for them anymore, and the other girl who is never available, either she is in a call, or she is at a meeting, at the end, there´s nobody who can provide anything that can sound not even close to the most reasonable explanation on what´s going on...I hate sounding like one of my customer but definitely....ACTIONS WILL HAVE TO BE TAKEN...THIS ATTITUD IS TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE AND WONT BE TOLERATED ANYMORE..(hhmmm, I guess that´s not a customer but fuck that shit! it works right now jajajajaja) ....WE WILL GO TO THE DDC AND WILL GET THIS RESOLVED...."ASA FUCKING P" (jajaja sorry I had to quote that one, I really loved it when u said it jajajaja : p)

Im drowning......

this is like the fourth time I start writting this post but still doesnt feel right...have so many things in my mind I need to get out, but just cant...start typing and typing but, nothing seems to make sense...

so frustrating....having so much to say, but cant......fuck! :´(

y te voy a dedicar una cancion pues ... :P

You are my soul rock

When the tide is up

And the waves

Are crashing in on me

Soul rock

When I've had enough

Of the wreck of everything

These streets

Got an undertow

And the city is sinking

Ooohhh

You're the only hope

I hold on to

When I'm drowning

...cause you always make me realize what Im doing wrong, or when Im thinking on doing things I shouldnt, cause you always have a good advise to give me and cause you basically are just there, willing to listen to all my rant, and that is always deeply appreciated :D thanks for being my friend :D