hadn't realize how long its been since my last post...
3 months... wow, feels like December was just a few weeks ago, anyway...let me try to remember..
work, work is still the same, ugly calls, people who forgets to say thank you, people who forgets things are easy to be said but not to be done, ... nah... in a few words, work is still the same crap and cant wait for the day that I will be out of there.
the kid is really excited about school, he is learning to read, I admit it, Im definitely not helping him as I should, actually, Im not helping him at all. his new teacher was really understanding about his ADD and he was feeling really proud of his improvement... bad news is that she left, who knows why, so we have to start all over again, good thing it looks like he is not doing so bad.
school is doing really good, well, just good I would say. its been really busy, a lot of work, but cant deny I feel really good with the challenge, love my teachers, not all of them, but definitely I admire the skill two of them have to transmit his ideas so clear, I wish I could be half of smart they are.
family is doing good, still after a year trying to get along with each other but, we are improving and that is the important part...
lets see what is coming now
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
rip 2010
y se acabo el año,..,
(and what a way to end it, burping, peeing and nausea.... worst part is alcohol is not even near involved,., somebody is getting old or freaking sick)
y en lugar de ponerme a dormir me puse a revisar el facebook, leer todos los status empeoro la depresion en la que estoy, todos dando gracias por lo que les dejo el año viejo y esperando el nuevo,., yo estoy demasiado cansada ahorita, y la depresion esta dando con todo ahorita, tenia bastante de no sentirme asi, pero ahora me pego fuerte.
quisiera poder dar gracias por algo, pero estoy demasiado deprimida ahorita, se que hay cosas buenas, pero esa sera para otro post, para uno en el que todo lo vea bonito, ahorita todo se ve gris, y oscuro, bien a lo pelicula de Tim Burton.
solo se que este año es como el pasado, el lunes regreso al mismo trabajo de siempre, las cuentas siguen alli y hay que arreglar todo para que el kid vaya a estudiar, nada a cambiado, solo hay que cambiar la fecha.
y la verdad es que mejor escribo cuando ya no ande pmsing como ahorita, muy feo se ve esto
....,
thanks handsome for being here, for being you, for caring, for supporting, for showing, for working your ass off to make things better, it might not show, but hell it works, and hell I needed all that you did and said, I love you, thanks for giving me such a beautiful year, definitely the best memories I have from 2010 are by your side, and I know 2011 is bringing 12 more months to share and enjoy, God bless you handsome and never forget we love you with all our heart, thanks again for loving us so much
(and what a way to end it, burping, peeing and nausea.... worst part is alcohol is not even near involved,., somebody is getting old or freaking sick)
y en lugar de ponerme a dormir me puse a revisar el facebook, leer todos los status empeoro la depresion en la que estoy, todos dando gracias por lo que les dejo el año viejo y esperando el nuevo,., yo estoy demasiado cansada ahorita, y la depresion esta dando con todo ahorita, tenia bastante de no sentirme asi, pero ahora me pego fuerte.
quisiera poder dar gracias por algo, pero estoy demasiado deprimida ahorita, se que hay cosas buenas, pero esa sera para otro post, para uno en el que todo lo vea bonito, ahorita todo se ve gris, y oscuro, bien a lo pelicula de Tim Burton.
solo se que este año es como el pasado, el lunes regreso al mismo trabajo de siempre, las cuentas siguen alli y hay que arreglar todo para que el kid vaya a estudiar, nada a cambiado, solo hay que cambiar la fecha.
y la verdad es que mejor escribo cuando ya no ande pmsing como ahorita, muy feo se ve esto
....,
thanks handsome for being here, for being you, for caring, for supporting, for showing, for working your ass off to make things better, it might not show, but hell it works, and hell I needed all that you did and said, I love you, thanks for giving me such a beautiful year, definitely the best memories I have from 2010 are by your side, and I know 2011 is bringing 12 more months to share and enjoy, God bless you handsome and never forget we love you with all our heart, thanks again for loving us so much
Sunday, November 21, 2010
and we start again,.,
and as it always get to me every once in a while, going through some old shit I shouldn´t be touching never again, not of my concern anyway I guess, it only makes me get weird ideas in my mind.
I should just fall asleep or at least think about more important things like my dad´s birthday instead of old garbage stuff people doesnt throw away or new stuff that doesnt seem to mean enough to get noticed...
just kinda venting I guess,.,
I should just fall asleep or at least think about more important things like my dad´s birthday instead of old garbage stuff people doesnt throw away or new stuff that doesnt seem to mean enough to get noticed...
just kinda venting I guess,.,
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
horoscope...
~my horoscope...
If things seem to have fallen into a bad pattern with your family lately, just realize that the best way to change things is to let go of the past and quit reacting so emotionally. If you can just manage to do this, then your whole attitude should start improving and you ought to start feeling a lot happier with things around the house once again.
There's no reason to let old habits take over. And if you can just try to work on developing some new ways of dealing with any difficult family issues, things really ought to start seeming a lot more positive and hopeful on the home front before long. Mantra: Self-Expression.
If things seem to have fallen into a bad pattern with your family lately, just realize that the best way to change things is to let go of the past and quit reacting so emotionally. If you can just manage to do this, then your whole attitude should start improving and you ought to start feeling a lot happier with things around the house once again.
There's no reason to let old habits take over. And if you can just try to work on developing some new ways of dealing with any difficult family issues, things really ought to start seeming a lot more positive and hopeful on the home front before long. Mantra: Self-Expression.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
hay septiembre.. andate ya :´(
y no se que me hizo pensar que septiembre realmente iba a ser un buen mes, me deje llevar como siempre y desde el primer dia lo declare el mejor mes del año. Lo que nunca me imagine fue que tan malo podia llegar a ser.
a estas alturas del año, me siento cansada. Creo que ya son muchas cosas apilandose una sobre otra. cambio de casa, cambio de cuenta en el trabajo, la universidad, el niño....
quiero hacer tantas cosas, quiero hacerlas lo mejor que puedo, pero pareciera que muchas cosas quedan pendientes o estan medio hechas. quisiera que la gente alrededor mio se sintieran bien, quisiera sacar lo mejor de esas personas, pero pareciera que desde que estan conmigo a sido su peor momento. eso me decepciona y hace que esa presion que siento en mi espalda aumente cada dia mas.
lo unico que puedo pensar es que este mes al fin se va a acabar, ya casi comienza octubre y solo deseo que este sea uno bueno, o que al menos no sea tan malo .... con eso me conformo :(
a estas alturas del año, me siento cansada. Creo que ya son muchas cosas apilandose una sobre otra. cambio de casa, cambio de cuenta en el trabajo, la universidad, el niño....
quiero hacer tantas cosas, quiero hacerlas lo mejor que puedo, pero pareciera que muchas cosas quedan pendientes o estan medio hechas. quisiera que la gente alrededor mio se sintieran bien, quisiera sacar lo mejor de esas personas, pero pareciera que desde que estan conmigo a sido su peor momento. eso me decepciona y hace que esa presion que siento en mi espalda aumente cada dia mas.
lo unico que puedo pensar es que este mes al fin se va a acabar, ya casi comienza octubre y solo deseo que este sea uno bueno, o que al menos no sea tan malo .... con eso me conformo :(
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
september morning...
not sure why, last night I was thinking, september its my favorite month of the year.
it might be its birthday-less personality, but something just makes me feel it will be a good one. no better proof but my day at work today.
good opportunities seem to be coming up, although the time is not the best one, even those look-like-lost opportunities have left the feeling of bringing something good.
and it might be just me, but feeling so inspired and full of hope and look-at-the-bright-side mentality (even in these awful crimson days!!) says a lot, just hope I'm not jinxing the whole thing.
yes yes I know we are barely starting the month but...
its fear to dream.,.,.
it might be its birthday-less personality, but something just makes me feel it will be a good one. no better proof but my day at work today.
good opportunities seem to be coming up, although the time is not the best one, even those look-like-lost opportunities have left the feeling of bringing something good.
and it might be just me, but feeling so inspired and full of hope and look-at-the-bright-side mentality (even in these awful crimson days!!) says a lot, just hope I'm not jinxing the whole thing.
yes yes I know we are barely starting the month but...
its fear to dream.,.,.
about the things I think when I should be paying attention to my TIC IV class
there are moments in life, when for some reason we feel the need to stop, realize where we are standing, what we are doing, and where are we coming from.
its interesting to see, how our life has been changing, how we have moved from one stage to another in life without either planning or asking for it.
Lately, Ive been feeling so old, bringing up memories of times when everything looked so blurry and images had no sound, feels weird to have that as the image of those "old times" when being irresponsible just felt natural, now, Ive been left to hear the half-stories of the new young "irresponsible" kids, when there´s nothing left but to laugh and think "ouh, I used to do that too".
although there still fun, a different type, but always a good one,. finding joy on simple things that were taken for granted before.trying to keep in mind that the bank account is running shorter and shorter, non-stopping, that damn clock will never stop ticking, and life, keeps coming to us willing to give us the best it has, at the end, its up to us what we do with what we are given.
after all this time of feeling completely lost, not finding the course of my life, the past months have provided me what I was lacking for: a sense of belonging, a sense of having a huge commitment and responsibility in this world. feeling empowered to look for my true meaning in life, left behind the baggage of fears and doubts, realizing its a matter of let go and understand we cant control everything around us but to be sure that at then end, we will always find the answers we are looking for.
and is now, at the gate of a new time in life, when once again I stop, take a look of what has been done, what we have gone through, and full of hope, I take a glance to what it looks to be the future, take a deep breath and take your hand to give that first step, and i know, every time I feel I stumble I just need to hold on tight, look to your eyes and keep on walking, as it has always been,.,.
cause since the beginning I always knew you came here for a reason, everyday that passes by is a witness of all the amazing moments you are giving me, just with a sweet smile, with that "I love you more" you give me every morning, you make me strong, as I never knew I was.
thanks baby for this 6 years of happiness, for being here to show me what real love is, for teaching me how to be a mom, for letting me know when Im messing up, and specially for being my compass, that sweet voice in the back of my head that keeps me away of trouble, that strength that makes me wake up every moment and complete, step by step, the road Ive dreamed for both of us.
its interesting to see, how our life has been changing, how we have moved from one stage to another in life without either planning or asking for it.
Lately, Ive been feeling so old, bringing up memories of times when everything looked so blurry and images had no sound, feels weird to have that as the image of those "old times" when being irresponsible just felt natural, now, Ive been left to hear the half-stories of the new young "irresponsible" kids, when there´s nothing left but to laugh and think "ouh, I used to do that too".
although there still fun, a different type, but always a good one,. finding joy on simple things that were taken for granted before.trying to keep in mind that the bank account is running shorter and shorter, non-stopping, that damn clock will never stop ticking, and life, keeps coming to us willing to give us the best it has, at the end, its up to us what we do with what we are given.
after all this time of feeling completely lost, not finding the course of my life, the past months have provided me what I was lacking for: a sense of belonging, a sense of having a huge commitment and responsibility in this world. feeling empowered to look for my true meaning in life, left behind the baggage of fears and doubts, realizing its a matter of let go and understand we cant control everything around us but to be sure that at then end, we will always find the answers we are looking for.
and is now, at the gate of a new time in life, when once again I stop, take a look of what has been done, what we have gone through, and full of hope, I take a glance to what it looks to be the future, take a deep breath and take your hand to give that first step, and i know, every time I feel I stumble I just need to hold on tight, look to your eyes and keep on walking, as it has always been,.,.
cause since the beginning I always knew you came here for a reason, everyday that passes by is a witness of all the amazing moments you are giving me, just with a sweet smile, with that "I love you more" you give me every morning, you make me strong, as I never knew I was.
thanks baby for this 6 years of happiness, for being here to show me what real love is, for teaching me how to be a mom, for letting me know when Im messing up, and specially for being my compass, that sweet voice in the back of my head that keeps me away of trouble, that strength that makes me wake up every moment and complete, step by step, the road Ive dreamed for both of us.
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