as I was on my way home yesterday, the dude who drove me home was listening to a radio and they started playing an old song, I remember while riding in the car with my dad, dudes in the radio saying "do you remember this song?" and I would think like, "damn that people is old!"; but yesterday, yesterday was my turn...that dude in the radio saying, "do you remember this song?...that song that man dedicated to you...that man that you are married now...or that was your first boyfriend..?" I never had a boyfriend at school, and definitely nobody dedicated that song to me, but, I thought, he is right, how many woman my age are listening to that song thinking about their sweetheart at school, or even those who actually got married with them...God I AM OLD!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
horoscope
Patience is your lesson for today. Not everything will happen on your time table.
Overview
You're asked for assistance, probably pretty late in the day, and find that you can offer quite a bit more than what you're asked for. Make sure that your friends know that you're there for them.
No matter where you are, keep your Kleenex handy, and warn your companions that you just might turn into a faucet at any given moment. You're feeling even more nostalgic than usual, and you know it. It's time to stop feeling bad about it. It's lovely to be able to experience emotions that deeply. Just ask any of the other denizens of this planet, most of whom spend far too much time and energy trying to hide what's going on behind the surface.~ u.u and I like it when someone understands que soy una gran chillona :$
Monday, October 26, 2009
ZZZZzzzzzzzz.......
last night was a terrible night, cant remember having one like that in..in..jamas!
was there in my usual routine before bed time, farming, chatting and the eternal fight between either watching a movie or House a lil, which usually ends up on getting me so sleepy that I just go to sleep instead...
so last night as I got no more chat interaction and was starting to feel sleepy decided to shut down the computer (something I rarely do at night) and went to bed...and there the nightmare begins....
started turning from one side to the other...the pillowing that usually makes me fall asleep instantly this time were just the most annoying thing ever, then started to feel cold, got the xps colchita...feeling nice and all of a sudden when I was feeling so comfortable, started feeling hot...unbearably hot...had to take the colchita off...then cold again...then hot again...and turning side to side....getting pillows away...bringing them back again...after what it seemed eternity (my best guest it was like 1 hour and a half) I decided to House a lil, just to get sleepy enough and finally be able to fall asleep. so, got some episodes in the playlist and lay there...eyes wide open...crying (vaya pues no, but I was feeling like to :$) cause I was feeling so damn tired, begging to fall asleep but just couldnt....
there was no pain, yes the leg was bugging a lil but was not even pain, was, just, an, annoying feeling alli, dunno; so, no pain, and feeling sleepy, but as soon I would close my eyes it would be like my brain just started yelling at me, yes, it was like that, every damn time I closed my eyes trying not to think on anything, my brain would start yelling how much I wanted to sleep, it was so damn annoying, and now that I think about it and read it back, it sounds so fucked up, but, it was like that,.,around 2:30 am and realizing how bad the next day was gonna be for the lack of sleep, I just pictured how I must have looked right that minute, sitting on the corner of my bed starting blank to the notebook's screen, just crying (tearless vaya) cause I wanted to sleep so much..
now Im here at work, I already have a black coffee and a coke, wishing I could sleep during lunch, and just counting the hours to go home,.,I just hope tonight will be different,.,
was there in my usual routine before bed time, farming, chatting and the eternal fight between either watching a movie or House a lil, which usually ends up on getting me so sleepy that I just go to sleep instead...
so last night as I got no more chat interaction and was starting to feel sleepy decided to shut down the computer (something I rarely do at night) and went to bed...and there the nightmare begins....
started turning from one side to the other...the pillowing that usually makes me fall asleep instantly this time were just the most annoying thing ever, then started to feel cold, got the xps colchita...feeling nice and all of a sudden when I was feeling so comfortable, started feeling hot...unbearably hot...had to take the colchita off...then cold again...then hot again...and turning side to side....getting pillows away...bringing them back again...after what it seemed eternity (my best guest it was like 1 hour and a half) I decided to House a lil, just to get sleepy enough and finally be able to fall asleep. so, got some episodes in the playlist and lay there...eyes wide open...crying (vaya pues no, but I was feeling like to :$) cause I was feeling so damn tired, begging to fall asleep but just couldnt....
there was no pain, yes the leg was bugging a lil but was not even pain, was, just, an, annoying feeling alli, dunno; so, no pain, and feeling sleepy, but as soon I would close my eyes it would be like my brain just started yelling at me, yes, it was like that, every damn time I closed my eyes trying not to think on anything, my brain would start yelling how much I wanted to sleep, it was so damn annoying, and now that I think about it and read it back, it sounds so fucked up, but, it was like that,.,around 2:30 am and realizing how bad the next day was gonna be for the lack of sleep, I just pictured how I must have looked right that minute, sitting on the corner of my bed starting blank to the notebook's screen, just crying (tearless vaya) cause I wanted to sleep so much..
now Im here at work, I already have a black coffee and a coke, wishing I could sleep during lunch, and just counting the hours to go home,.,I just hope tonight will be different,.,
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Meet the Robinsons
the kid usually gets stuck with a movie for quite a while, although none of them has been able to beat cars, that one is just his all time favorite one, Im guessing we spend over a year watching that movie around 3 times a day.
now he is stuck with this movie, "meet the Robinsons" and even though he has had some other favorite movies, I like to see him laughing his ass off with this scene (min 3:20 )
I like this particular movie, the message, how family must support each other all the time, its something I think its very important, in the past year Ive come to understand and learn pretty basic and simple rules of social relationships, understanding that we have people aorund us that we love and consider important and, how in order for us to keep those relationships must basically accept those people just the way they are, pure and simple, why? cause we are all special, and there´s nobody perfect.
that movie reflects in a very funny and a lil bit exagerated way, all those carachteristics we might find annoying on each other, but that at the same time, adds value to the day to day routine.
now he is stuck with this movie, "meet the Robinsons" and even though he has had some other favorite movies, I like to see him laughing his ass off with this scene (min 3:20 )
I like this particular movie, the message, how family must support each other all the time, its something I think its very important, in the past year Ive come to understand and learn pretty basic and simple rules of social relationships, understanding that we have people aorund us that we love and consider important and, how in order for us to keep those relationships must basically accept those people just the way they are, pure and simple, why? cause we are all special, and there´s nobody perfect.
that movie reflects in a very funny and a lil bit exagerated way, all those carachteristics we might find annoying on each other, but that at the same time, adds value to the day to day routine.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
and I should be doing my fisica report.......
started to get some of the results of the last parciales, gotta say, didnt end up as bad as I thought. one thing is for sure, gotta do a lot better the next one, I dont like those crappy scores,.,
kid has been doing a lil bit better at school, at least that´s what I like to think, my mom´s theory is that the teacher just gave up and that´s the reason why we stopped receiving notes from school. some other problems are arising though, but they are here at the house, gotta say its a lot worst, people at my family (gotta include myself) are not that good receiving feedback ( special note, we are all good taking feedback from other people, but things between us 5 it just sucks) so, gotta make some people here understand how things work here, the escalation process seems to have been messed up a lil bit so we gotta calibrate the whole thing again. I just hope we will be able to do it and nobody will feel hurt.
anyway,.,
ehm, started to read again, and again, my boss had to talk to me about that :s, I was able to improve the metrics I was failing but consistency is my problem, specially when Im necia and start reading...damn, I just cant stop! so I guess Ill have to start all over again and stop reading, I end up reading digital fortress like in 2 days...and I already have the next one ready, I wont take it to work so I wont be tempted to read it :$
on saturday I watched "my sister´s keeper", mmm more than saying a good movie, I would say its a good story, really good one gotta say, my main issue with the movie was having Cameron Diaz as the mom, not a role for her, a mom going through that it is just way too much...I just dont buy it coming from her...anyway, the reason I brought the movie up was cause I heard a song in the movie, and I just loved it, so, I got my artist of the week from there :D, Chantal Kreviazuk....
for the past weeks Ive also been watching season 1 of Dr House, I love that TV series, trying to make season 2 last as long as possible so I wont have to wait too long till season 3 is completly downloaded; I love that "grown up-from-peanuts" talking they have,., jajajja ;)
today I had my boss almost begging me to go do some OT this coming sunday, I know I will regret so much doing it, but, having 3 days off weekend it is not bad at all, specially cause Ill have it payed double and I desperately need the money, so hopefully that day will go fast :(
[and I used The Notebook video cause....well...just cause its funny, I wish I could see ur face :P jajajaja]
kid has been doing a lil bit better at school, at least that´s what I like to think, my mom´s theory is that the teacher just gave up and that´s the reason why we stopped receiving notes from school. some other problems are arising though, but they are here at the house, gotta say its a lot worst, people at my family (gotta include myself) are not that good receiving feedback ( special note, we are all good taking feedback from other people, but things between us 5 it just sucks) so, gotta make some people here understand how things work here, the escalation process seems to have been messed up a lil bit so we gotta calibrate the whole thing again. I just hope we will be able to do it and nobody will feel hurt.
anyway,.,
ehm, started to read again, and again, my boss had to talk to me about that :s, I was able to improve the metrics I was failing but consistency is my problem, specially when Im necia and start reading...damn, I just cant stop! so I guess Ill have to start all over again and stop reading, I end up reading digital fortress like in 2 days...and I already have the next one ready, I wont take it to work so I wont be tempted to read it :$
on saturday I watched "my sister´s keeper", mmm more than saying a good movie, I would say its a good story, really good one gotta say, my main issue with the movie was having Cameron Diaz as the mom, not a role for her, a mom going through that it is just way too much...I just dont buy it coming from her...anyway, the reason I brought the movie up was cause I heard a song in the movie, and I just loved it, so, I got my artist of the week from there :D, Chantal Kreviazuk....
for the past weeks Ive also been watching season 1 of Dr House, I love that TV series, trying to make season 2 last as long as possible so I wont have to wait too long till season 3 is completly downloaded; I love that "grown up-from-peanuts" talking they have,., jajajja ;)
today I had my boss almost begging me to go do some OT this coming sunday, I know I will regret so much doing it, but, having 3 days off weekend it is not bad at all, specially cause Ill have it payed double and I desperately need the money, so hopefully that day will go fast :(
[and I used The Notebook video cause....well...just cause its funny, I wish I could see ur face :P jajajaja]
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
blast from the past..
as its already known about me, Im a procrastinator; most of the time, its a conscious thing when I CHOOSE to procrastinate whatever I have to do, but, sometimes, my mind chooses to do it, its in those moments that songs from my past come back to my mind and the already know BLAST FROM THE PAST happen... I was advise to post them, at first I thought mmmm nah,., but right now, while listening to this lady screaming in one of my ears and listening to this song on my other one, an image came to my mind.
it was anytime in the early 90's, my parents gave me the best gift ever, a Sony WM-FX28 walkman
and then I became a fan, but like a FAN of Bon Jovi, I would sing his songs over and over again, first thing to do as soon as I came back from school, and even at nights....I would sing as loud as I could, which gotta say, was a big issue, cause I didnt care as having the volume all the way up I couldnt hear myself; what I did was nothing not even close to sing...specially those high pitch he does in this specific song, around that same time I was falling over my knees for a guy, so I would sing it with all the love a 12-15 years old girl can have inside, till I fell asleep or till my dad would come to knock my door or yell at my window to shut up cause I was screaming. next day would be a mandatory thing to go through all the jokes and humiliation he would come up with.
till today he still enjoys making fun of me, and every once in a while he will ask if by now I have learn to sing....
it was anytime in the early 90's, my parents gave me the best gift ever, a Sony WM-FX28 walkman
and then I became a fan, but like a FAN of Bon Jovi, I would sing his songs over and over again, first thing to do as soon as I came back from school, and even at nights....I would sing as loud as I could, which gotta say, was a big issue, cause I didnt care as having the volume all the way up I couldnt hear myself; what I did was nothing not even close to sing...specially those high pitch he does in this specific song, around that same time I was falling over my knees for a guy, so I would sing it with all the love a 12-15 years old girl can have inside, till I fell asleep or till my dad would come to knock my door or yell at my window to shut up cause I was screaming. next day would be a mandatory thing to go through all the jokes and humiliation he would come up with.
till today he still enjoys making fun of me, and every once in a while he will ask if by now I have learn to sing....
Sunday, October 4, 2009
questioning...
update....
went to the doctor..he gave me the letter a needed; in exchange, I have to take the kid to his clinic to get some vaccines...guess its a fair trade. went to the new school, they didnt say anything, just grabbed the papers and told me the date to pay the rest of the money ( that bono better come soon :( )
...enough update...
today I had my last parcial, did really bad. actually Ive done really bad in all of them ( the important ones). I putted all the blame in the leg pain, which, well, yes it doesnt let me concentrate but I dont think its the whole problem. having a lot of issues to organize myself, I need to start "exceling" my time I guess :$
in the afternoon the kid left with my parents, so I stayed home. Seize to watched some Dr. House episodes, and one of them brought something to my mind, some sort of...fear maybe, dunno how to call it; anyway, the point is, I dont like when I get into this stages, when something is just bouncing on your head, thinking on bringing that up next time, but doubting if its the best call as it might not be nothing but if you bring it up it might cause a huge damage....sucks!
Ive been trying to recall the few times I felt like this, gotta say most of them, they turned out to be nothing, or it was me just trying to sell myself the idea of everything doing ok. fear of hearing something different of what I want to hear? damn, now I brought up even more questioning than how I started...
went to the doctor..he gave me the letter a needed; in exchange, I have to take the kid to his clinic to get some vaccines...guess its a fair trade. went to the new school, they didnt say anything, just grabbed the papers and told me the date to pay the rest of the money ( that bono better come soon :( )
...enough update...
today I had my last parcial, did really bad. actually Ive done really bad in all of them ( the important ones). I putted all the blame in the leg pain, which, well, yes it doesnt let me concentrate but I dont think its the whole problem. having a lot of issues to organize myself, I need to start "exceling" my time I guess :$
in the afternoon the kid left with my parents, so I stayed home. Seize to watched some Dr. House episodes, and one of them brought something to my mind, some sort of...fear maybe, dunno how to call it; anyway, the point is, I dont like when I get into this stages, when something is just bouncing on your head, thinking on bringing that up next time, but doubting if its the best call as it might not be nothing but if you bring it up it might cause a huge damage....sucks!
Ive been trying to recall the few times I felt like this, gotta say most of them, they turned out to be nothing, or it was me just trying to sell myself the idea of everything doing ok. fear of hearing something different of what I want to hear? damn, now I brought up even more questioning than how I started...
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