blast from the past....

I was going through my music files and found this song, I knew was kinda old, but when I found the video in you tube I was shock, 1988! dayum, I was...let me check...I was 6 years old! anyway, made me laughed, I remember my older cousin dressing like that and getting her hair with the high ony tail, although she would use it in a more Cyndi Lauper way



but then I found this other song...and that´s a real blast from the past...



I remember hearing that song in those radio programs they would air on sunday night..."una noche para dos...con Ozi Reyes... (I don even know if that´s how its spelled..) jaja, remember those people calling to send greetings to their lovely oso pooh from tigger...so lame, guess in the inside I was jealous and wishing for someone to call and dedicate a song to me...jajaja

but we can only hope...

no se realmente en que momento comenze, pero de un tiempo aca, tiendo mucho a detenerme, ver hacia atras; y a ver que hice bien, que hice mal, y como las situaciones desagradables que han sucedido en algun momento de mi vida me obligaron a tomar caminos que nunca hubiera tomado, pero que me han llevado a cosas mejores, cosas que nunca me habia imaginado.
usualmente al estar cerca el final del año, me doy cuenta la diferencia entre ese año y el año anterior, si lo he terminado mejor, peor, igual...y pienso en todo lo bueno que el siguiente me traera,.,
pero ahora, ahora no se que pensar. han sucedido tantas cosas, en años anteriores han sucedido cosas tan desagradables, pero tenia la certeza que con el tiempo todo estaria mejor, despues de todo por alli dicen, una vez se toca fondo el unico lugar al que se puede ir, es hacia arriba.. creo que no recuerdo nunca haber terminado un año como este, no tengo certeza de nada, no se como voy a terminar este año, y eso que apenas solo falta un mes.
quizas esa sea la diferencia este año, no saber lo que viene mañana...

...but we can only hope its gonna be something good.... -.-

T-I-R-E-D!

so, past few days have been mentally exhausting for me. been carrying an unbearable amount of frustration at my job, and as immature as I am, instead of working harder to change my actual state here, I started to give a damn about it, which after a few weeks lead to the inevitable, someone was gonna find out and was gonna report it to my boss,.,
so, got the warning from my boss, (till now I havent been told exactly what the disciplinary action would be), the kid starts his summer school today at the new school, (first time in his life going to school alone ), I have no damn money ( which apparently its a normal state for everybody here) and also going through some personal transition-renovating-renew kind of thing... now Im just T-I-R-E-D!
anyway, Im working hard right now to do what I have to at my job, that way I wont get my butt kicked out of here, I really need this damn job. (I wish I could have a job of my own, too bad I cant think on something )
cant wait for friday to come, Im just stressed and tired, there are only two instances where everything seems to dissapear and I can breath normally... those minutes before my baby falls asleep; looking at those beautiful eyes and how he says I love you mommy; or when Im with my handsome boyfriend just watching tv or a movie, those moments right there are my definition of happiness, I could stay there forever...

Spend the day keeping a nice, healthy distance between you and whomever you've been trying to duck out on -- even if you know they'll notice and take offense. What's more important, after all? Having a good day? Or placating someone who really does need to realize, once and for all, that nobody in their right mind wants to be around a Debbie Downer. You win.

~! mmmm.,., ok

jajaja, my day-to-day experience at work.... ~.~

que gran dia...

y me dijo...

"Mami, que gran dia..."


indeed it was.... thanks for giving us such a great day =D!

friday 13th..

friday 13th...

if there's something Ive never believed in is superstition...but today, man, today might make me reconsider that..s.
ironically, the reasons why it has been such a bad day, are nothing even close to supernatural events. although I gotta say it is interesting to see how a chain of event can develop in such a very unpleasant result. I know everything that happens comes as a consequence of what we do or say, but I had never lived something so obvious like as today.
so, it all started last night, started with a phone call, then a phone running out of charge, a short power cord on an ac adapter, an alarm set to vibration, a vibration that is so low I didnt feel it, which led to me waiking up so damn late, as I rush to come to work I forgot to bring the chest gear of the kid I had till today to return, as I was still half way asleep when I got here, got in a fight with a customer, which left me feeling even worst, and as a result also of me waiking up so late I forgot to get my money in my purse, I had to go to the drugstore to my meds, no money, have to pay the cab to go see the kid, NO MONEY!, with my hormons going nuts, anxious waiting for my boss to ask him his approval to take a late lunch to go see my kid, having him using my sale rate as an excuse, I end up crying,., FTS! CRYING, in the bathroom...how lame is that! which made me to realize how unable to express myself when I dealing with all these things at once, feeling bad cause it seems Im making some people feel uncomfortable when the only thing I want is to have exactly those people right next to me, and even though that, I just cant say it.

sleeping my sunday off

so...parciales are finally over, we´ve had rain all weekend, and after i had the last parcial, went to meet the family at my mom´s as we do all sundays. so had lunch with them, watched the news, 91 deaths 60 missing .... ( feeling so damn bad I let him leave the house in such terrible weather condition knowing the place I live..that was just irresponsable from my side, baby Im so sorry) so after I had lunch, went to bed to watch movies and I fell asleep...woke up a few times but I was feeling so damn lazy...I got up like 5 hours later...I needed that rest. then came home, and now Im not sleepy at all, so Im enjoying just watching my boys embracing the sleepiness.
things at work again are getting fucked up, still dont know how I would manage but, the plan so far, is to improve what Ive been failing so far, have to manage to sale and to ask for that freaking email. then, Ill ask for the raise...how? I still dont know...as of right now, Ill have to manage.
Gotta say, days like today, I feel....I feel...blessed....having people I love and who love me around...safe...looking at all the things that seem to be coming my way but, I know, Ill do it. we can do it, and it all be ok.
now, I knew this long long time ago, but, last night was one more proof that...I so should stop drinking...at least when Im pmsing or when Im in THAT week of the month :$ I just loose it..,and its not funny at all to just mess such a perfect moment.